It’s time to tell my story.
I am so grateful for this blog, or what used to be called, “4BabyAndMom”. It helped fill a gap that I didn’t even know was empty. It helped me reconnect with my passion and desire for writing and connecting with people.
Here I am almost 20 years later, reflecting about life and all of its twists and turns, ups and downs, and in and outs. I’m about to start a new stage of my life, and it is the scariest and most exhilarating stage I have experienced in a very long time. I know that there are zero people who still read my blog, so I’ll call a spade a spade- once again, this blog is going to be my therapy. I mean it this time. I didn’t continue in 2023 because my divorce wasn’t finalized yet. I didn’t want to jeopardize anything, especially with my kids. But the divorce has been finalized for quite some time, in fact, my ex-husband has already remarried… But that’s a whole other post for a different time.
The woman I am now is not the same person that started this blog almost 20 years ago.
I’m divorced, a mom of a 23 year-old, a 20 year-old, and 13-year-old – soon to be 14, as he reminds me all too often. I’m a girlfriend, a bonus mom, a former foster mom (x4), and a teacher. I go to concerts, out for brunch, have tattoos, and have even traveled to The Bahamas, Europe, and Africa. I am living the best life- a life I never thought I could!
I have survived mental, physical, emotional, verbal, and narcissistic abuse and neglect. I have survived poverty. I have survived “staying married for the sake of the kids.” I have survived being a single mom. I have survived… and I have thrived!
My friends have said that I should write a book, but my confidence is still growing, and I don’t know if anybody would want to hear my story. Just like with the last several posts, I’m putting words onto paper, or into the great abyss, because I know nobody is interacting with my words quite yet. My analytics say that there are views, but I would bet that it’s just bots. Just like with all other aspects of my life, if I can help one person see that their choices don’t have to be made by their spouse or partner, that they can thrive apart from what they’ve known, then it’s worth it. I’m going to be vulnerable. I’m going to talk about things that are uncomfortable, and perhaps let some skeletons out of the closet and lay them to rest, but it’s what molded me into the woman I am today, and it’s about damn time.
If you’re reading the story anytime soon, or at whatever time the universe directs you here, I hope my story speaks to you.
#DIG #DivorceIsGood #survivor #IAmEnough
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